I typed a lot, then my internet had some problems and EVERYTHING IS GONE
EVERYTHING
feels like playing pokemon then my gameboy runs out of battery and i have to restart
i'll try to type all again

Some random thoughts i had, which cannot be answered
maybe they can, but yeah just wanna type it out

firstly, when you really like someone as a friend, does that person feel the same way about you?
when you hold someone with high regard, does that person feel the same way towards you?
when you really enjoy the attention of someone, does that person enjoy your attention?
you might be irritating to that person and is being a nuisance
when you really put in effort in a conversation with that person, does that person really care about you talking?

when you think of someone, does that person think of you?

Sometimes i feel that no matter how much you like someone and want to be his best friend, you can't
sometimes i feel that no matter how much you try to carry a conversation, you just get shut down by one-line replies, or even one word replies sometimes

second thought, when you make mistakes in life, can you really ammend for your mistakes, and atone for your sins?

所谓：“知错能改，善莫大焉”。

but have you ever seen a broken mirror mended perfectly, as if it was new?

of course, people say that it is human to err, and the chinese saying i put ontop says as long as you know your mistake you can change for the better

but there are some mistakes you make in life that cannot be ammended, or atoned for

in life, we make many choices, some are good choices, some make positive impacts on others,

but what about the bad choice you make, which ruin your whole life?
your social life, your ability to work, even when you step out of your house, that mistake will haunt you

third thought, have you felt lonely before?

many times i see people in a crowd trying to say something, but no one cares about what they say
many times i see people try to say something to humour the crowd, but no one cares about what they say

why is the world so unfair?

i mean, of course, we all know that everyone is born differently, we are unique on our own

some people say something funny, and everyone laughs,
some people may say something which is not really funny, but everyon fakes a smile
some people don't even have to say anything, but people flock over to them and simply enjoy being with him

sometimes people make mistakes, everyone knows it, and people outcast them bcause of the mistakes they make
some people change in terms of character, attitude, and passion for certain stuff, and people start to drift away from them

is it really that person's fault?
i thought it was human to err?
i thought we all acknowledge that everyone is different?
i thought we all think that we are nice people who are sensitive to others feelings?

yeah some people are boring, some people are detestable..

but learn to live in a community people..have a heart

can't you all just show some concern for every single person around you?

its like feeling their presence, but not willing to acknowledge it

no matter how hard these people try
no matter how much effort these people put in
no matter how much time they spend reflecting on themselves
no matter how much pain and sorrow they endure to overcome this emotional part of their lives

no one seems to care

and the worst part is why are some people so arrogant, so irritating, so negative, yet they receive more attention from their peers? it's like, during discussions, they say every idea will not work out, without careful thought to it, and makes everyone upset
but in the long run, people are more friendly to them!
and people who are supportive, and give constructive commnents, do not receive such treatment from their peers
they are treated coldly, they are outcasted by the rest, the environment is generally quieter and less warm when they're around

have a heart people, have a heart, you are encouraging nice people out there to become so negative and soon nothing will work out

No matter how hard some people try, every step that they take is another mistake to others..

Can't believe that I'm the fool again
And I who thought you were my friend,
How was I to know?
You never told me.

have a heart, show concern, and acknowledge the presence of everyone around you, be nice to them, after all, they are born the way they are born, not like they could have chose it right? forgive people who commit mistakes, 人非圣贤，孰能无过？

On a lighter note, i changed the first song to something i feel very soothing..

8:50 AM
Up, up, and away!

Monday, December 14, 2009